It’s something I’ve wondered about for some time, whether we can have a split down the middle of our personality and have two completely different approaches to things.
I was turned off the idea of going pro pretty early on, with the notion that if you”’re being paid, you have to produce what the client wants, rather than what you feel like shooting on that particular day/week/month/year. I can think of nothing that turns me off quicker than trying to produce something to order. SoFoBoMo was a test in that respect… my original idea fell completely flat on it’s face and I had to abandon it completely and let things run their own course. I had another taste of it this week when I went up to the botanic gardens in anticipation of a little public expo thing we’ve got coming up (People’s Photography) and wanted some more flower stuff for the front of cards – it felt good. Today I took my camera out at lunchtime and disovered some more awful architecture around Dublin city centre, as well as some blue plastic sheeting up in a new shop window, and it felt good, in another way. But the resulting images are so far apart that people could be forgiven for thinking they were by two different photographers.
Can you go on for very long without going crazy with dual (and sometimes conflicting) aspects of your personality pulling you in two different directions? Can you do the stuff that people want you to do, and the stuff to please yourself, and not be torn down the middle?